Sunday, 2 September 2012

5 pearls os Scottis Wisdom


1. Money cannot buy happiness but…somehow, it’s more comfortable to cry in a Mercedes Benz than it is on a bicycle.
2. Forgive your enemy, but remember the bastard’s name.
3. Help a man when he is in trouble and he will remember you when he is in trouble again.
4. Many people are alive only because it is illegal to shoot them.
5. Alcohol does not solve any problem, but then neither does milk.

Sunday, 22 July 2012

-Do you feel like talking now?
    I hesitated before I gave him an answer.
-No....I'm not quite ready yet.
-Alright.
-How are you doing?
-Nothing much. Laying in the bath tub, drinking beer and eating crackers. The usual July Sunday afternoon...not that I really expect you to remember how 36 degrees feels like.
-To be honest it's about 20 now and this is one of the hot days.
-I forgot how the wind feels like.
-...Are we really going to talk about the weather?
-We can talk about your day if you don't like the topic of weather. Although I thought it was a British fashion.
-My day?
-Yeah. You know like those conversations where you make a list of the actions that occurred between the moment you woke up and the present moment adding things that you consider to be relevant. Of course for my sake you can even leave out the things that are irrelevant.
   I pause a bit. I don't really know if he's being who he thinks I want him to be of just being his mourning self.
 -Ok. The phone woke me up at 12 30.
-I'm guessing it was your'carer'.
-...Yes.
-Well go ahead.
-...I thought that was irrelevant enough already.
-No. I'll stop you when we reach that point. Carry on.
-I went downstairs and made us some coffee as he made us lunch. He told me we were about to go eat in the park so I put it all in thermos mugs. I wasn't really awake so I followed him there the whole way. We got into the park, he stopped at a place he likes, sat down and I fallowed him throughout. We sat down and had lunch.
-Were you talking?
-Not until we finished eating. He might not seem like it but he's the kind of person you can enjoy a comfortable moment of silence with.
-Good. Then what?
-We began to talk as we smoked. Nothing too important, just everyday stuff, a few jokes, some healthy laughter to start the day. After we finished our cigarettes he got up and left for work. I stood there a bit finishing my coffee. I probably had a few more fags. Then I picked up after ourselves and went back.
-What did you have to eat?
-...Does it even matter?!
-Yes.
-....Sandwiches.
-Sounds nice. Actually I wouldn't mind having that kinda life.
-Yeah it's not bad.
-Then what did you do?
-You seriously haven't had enough?!
-Well if you don't mind going on I wouldn't mind either.
   I was convinced by this point that he was trying to prove a point. And probably the best thing to do was to let him prove it.
-It was sunny so I decided to take my laptop with me, go down to the beach and read.
-...What?
-Murakami.
   He paused for a bit obviously mulling it over and maki ng a list of conclusions he drew along the way.
-Which one?
-Wild Sheep Chase.
-Didn't you already read that one?
   It was my first Murakami book. I  was very sceptikal when I fisrt saw it. I remember looking at the guy with a very displeased galnce, and I also remember I made it clear I felt really insulted. Little did I know that I was about to fall for Murakami like for no other before him.
-I thought I'd read it again before 'Dance Dance Dance'.
-Oh. So ..does it bring back the memories?
-It has a different feel to it. Probably because it's in English...and off a laptop.
-Fair enough. They're not really related you know?
-Who?
-The books.
-Oh. Well I figured it couldn't hurt.
-I guess it doesn't. How was the beach?
-Except for it being rocky, it was nice. A bit crowded since it was a sunny day.
-Figures.
-Why do you want to know all this?
-Because I'm your brother.
   Just like that. Without hesitation, without cushion. There was no question, no space for any arguments. Just like you breath in oxygen and exhale carbon dioxyde, he was my brother.
-I'm fine. I'm not going to do anything 'stupid'.
-Yeah it sounds like you're perfectly fine.
-Don't you ever grow tired of sarcasm!?
-Do you ever grow tired of sarcasm?!
-....
-Anyway. I wasn't being sarcastic. By the looks of it you're perfectly fine. Except for the voice.
-I'm fine.
-You should clear out your voice a little bit. Maybe drink some tea. Eat something and put a litlle more life into it. Then you'll actually be able to convince anyone that you are, without a doubt, perfectly fine.




Saturday, 21 July 2012

insensate


Listen--God only exists in people's minds. Especially in Japan, God's
always been kind of a flexible concept. Look at what happened after the war.
Douglas MacArthur ordered the divine emperor to quit being God, and he did, making
a speech saying he was just an ordinary person. So after 1946 he wasn't God
anymore. That's what Japanese gods are like--they can be tweaked and adjusted.
Some American chomping on a cheap pipe gives the order and presto change-o--God's
no longer God. A very postmodern kind of thing. If you think God's there, He is.
If you don't, He isn't. And if that's what God's like, I wouldn't worry about it."

"All right, but what's so special about this stone? It doesn't look like
much of anything."
"The stone itself is meaningless. The situation calls for something, and at
this point in time it just happens to be this stone. Anton Chekhov put it best
when he said, 'If a pistol appears in a story, eventually it's got to be fired.'
Do you know what he means?"
"Nope."
Colonel Sanders sighed. "I didn't think so, but I had to ask. It's the
polite thing to do."
"Much obliged."
"What Chekhov was getting at is this: necessity is an independent concept.
It has a different structure from logic, morals, or meaning. Its function lies
entirely in the role it plays. What doesn't play a role shouldn't exist. What
necessity requires does need to exist. That's what you call dramaturgy. Logic,
morals, or meaning don't have anything to do with it. It's all a question of
relationality. Chekhov understood dramaturgy very well."

crawled into the other futon, and instantly fell asleep.
He had one short dream--of a god in short pants, hairy shins sticking out, racing
around a field playing a flute.

"Mr. Hoshino?"
"Wh--what?"
"The entrance opened up, thanks to you."
"You know something, Gramps? I mean, Mr. Nakata?"
"What is it?"
Faceup, eyes still shut, Hoshino took another long, deep breath and exhaled.
"It better have opened up. Otherwise I killed myself for nothing."


"Arch. Archduke. Beethoven dedicated it to the Austrian archduke Rudolph.
It's not the official name, more like the piece's nickname. Rudolph was the son of
Emperor Leopold the Second. He was a very skilled musician, who studied piano and
music theory with Beethoven starting when he was sixteen. He looked up to
Beethoven. Archduke Rudolph didn't make a name for himself as either a pianist or
a composer, but sort of stood in the shadows lending a helping hand to Beethoven,
who didn't know much about getting ahead in the world. If it hadn't been for him,
Beethoven would have had a much tougher time."
"Those kind of people are necessary in life, huh?"
"Absolutely."
"The world would be a real mess if everybody was a genius. Somebody's got to
keep watch, take care of business."
"Exactly. A world full of geniuses would have significant problems."
"I really like that piece."


"You know something, Mr. Nakata?"
"Yes?"
"I never get bored when I'm with you. All kinds of off-the-wall things
happen, but that much I can say for sure--being with you's never boring."
"Thank you for saying that. I feel relieved to hear it. But Mr. Hoshino?"
"What's up?"
"I'm not really sure I understand what being bored means."
"You've never been bored before?"
"No, not even once."
"You know, I kind of had the feeling that might be the case."


music, huh? Really makes you feel like your heart's opening up, don't you
think?"
The stone was silent.
He had no idea if the stone was listening, to the music or to him, but he
forged ahead anyway. "Like I was saying this morning, I've done some awful things
in my life. I was pretty self-centered. And it's too late to erase it all now, you
know? But when I listen to this music it's like Beethoven's right here talking to
me, telling me something like, It's okay, Hoshino, don't worry about it. That's
life. I've done some pretty awful things in my life too. Not much you can do about
it. Things happen. You just got to hang in there. Beethoven being the guy he was,
he's not about to say anything like that. But I'm still picking up that vibe from
his music, like that's what it's saying to me. Can you feel it?"
The stone was mute.
"Whatever," Hoshino said. "That's just my opinion. I'll shut up so we can
listen."
When he looked outside at two, a fat black cat was sitting on the railing on
the veranda, gazing in at the apartment. Bored, Hoshino opened the window and
called out, "Hey there, kitty. Nice day, isn't it?"
"Yes, indeed, it is a fine day, Mr. Hoshino," the cat replied.
"Gimme a break," Hoshino said, shaking his head.

"Gentlemen," he said, gazing up at the dawn rising in the east, "it's time
to light my fire!"

Saturday, 14 July 2012

blue jeans


My legs wrap around you as I caress your neckline with one hand and your wet hair with the other. Your head rests on my chest, your back pressing against my body as the warm water keeps  pouring lifting the white foam.
“La ce te gandesti?”  . I love the look on your face whenever you hear me speaking in my mother tongue, slightly lost, slightly confident, faking slick, obviously helpless. You raise your head tilting it backwards and slowly trace the line between my neck and my chin with soft kisses as I tighten my legs across your body. You reply ‘yes’ as your hands begin to caress my legs under the water.  
I move one leg placing it against your torso and begin to gently rub your dick with the tip of my toes. I then move my hands on the sides of the tub holding my weight as both my feet play around your  thick shaft. You’ve never been played with this way, the feeling drives you wild. You groan as your dick gets rock hard and the crazed movements of your hands let me know you’re both delighted and confused. Knowing I can make you feel that way turns me on incredibly. I lean my head closer to yours and I whisper ‘ I want you inside me’.
As my legs liberate you, you raise your torso, turn around  to face me and pull me close. Our legs interweave, your hands hold me tight and our craving tongues find each other as they slip between our open mouths. We pull back for a moment to catch our breath only to begin again. You know far too well what your flickering tongue does to my senses. I put my hands around your neck slowly stroking your wet hair as your hand finds my clit underneath the water. You gently part my pussy lips enjoying the soft moan released from my throat. Your fingers slip inside me swirling. My moans grow louder and my nails dig deep into your shoulders as your cheeky smile turns into a grin. I beg you for more as every nerve in my body wants you inside me. My quivers, my coarse breathing, my craving, my loud moans let you know I’m all yours and you take me.
You slide your hands underneath my thighs, I grab on to you and as I push myself up you tightly grab my ass cheeks. As you’re holding me with your firm hands, you slightly bend your back and I slide your fully erect cock inside me. I gasp for air and you let me stay like that for a few moments knowing how much I enjoy the sensation of you penetrating me.
I place my hands on the sides of the tub helping you to effortlessly move my body up and down as my clit grinds against you. As our bodies move faster and you thrust deeper inside me I begin to quiver more and more with every wave of pleasure that crushes my body. My moans turn to screams as I repeatedly shout out ‘da’ losing my senses and control in the growing pleasure. You love hearing me say it. I can feel the rim of your head swell with ecstasy as I clench my pussy even more tightly around your cock. Our breaths shallow and with a last effort I beg you to cum with me. You grab my body and pull me in deep as you bend your back even more. I scream loud with pleasure as I feel your cum inside me and my body tingles with pleasure long after my orgasm. I push myself away releasing your body. As I catch my breath, you take my hand, pull me close as you turn me around and place my head on your chest as my back presses against your body. You caress my neckline as the warm water keeps pouring and lifting the white foam.

Thursday, 12 July 2012

I spent my whole life driving in cars with boys


As I walk out of the shower I take a quick glimpse at you lying there on the couch with a book in your hands. You seem very concentrated, fully devoted to your reading but I know very well that you heard me. I move across the room and slowly bend over while I wrap my arms around your neck. I stand like that for a bit making sure you stopped reading. My hands slide underneath your shirt, I begin to massage your shoulders with a tight grip and as my wet hair caresses your cheek, I whisper in your ear ‘Is it any good?’ .
Knowing exactly what’s on my mind you decide to play a bit before giving in to your senses. You answer with a very detached, indifferent tone without moving your eyes from your book ‘Could be better’. I grin. I love playing this game. I begin to gently nibble your ear as I slide my hands from your shoulders down to your  chest and lower  them to your stomach slowly caressing your body.  I can hear your breath shallow as you try not to hum. ‘Better now?!”
You turn your head to me as our breaths caress each other’s face, stare deep into my eyes with your mouth slightly opened, put on a cheeky smile and say ‘Just a lil bit’ then turn your face back to your book.

I pout although we both know I love it when you tease me like that. I stand up and move towards you, my towel falls on the floor as I get on top you. I can feel you rock hard dick through your jeans right underneath my clit and I begin to crave the sensation of having you inside me even more. I start to slowly caress my breast as the cool air gives me soft shivers and water still drops down my wet body.” How about now?”
kpo
You drop your book as you stare at me animalistically. I grin with satisfaction feeling that you’re all mine. You grab me and pull me towards you, your mouth seeks mine. As my tongue finds yours , your hands graze all over my wet back and your grip gets tighter as you lower them down to my ass. I love the way your tongue plays in my mouth, the way you caress my back makes me tingle with pleasure, the desire with which your hands grab me makes me want you more and more.
I pull away slowly biting your tongue as we break our long kiss. I lower my body and I open your jeans to find your erect dick, I look at you perversely and say: ‘Not yet’ as I love the way in which we tease each other. I slowly begin to pull up your shirt. My fingers lead the way as my tongue and wet lips trace a line of soft kisses to your chest.  As I reach your neck you quickly stand up, pull off your shirt and wrap your hands around me pulling me back into a kiss. This time you lower one hand all the way down to my clit massaging it gently as you slowly slide one finger inside me. My body starts to spasm with pleasure as you tease by changing the rhythm in which you just tickle my clit. You feel me wanting to pull away as my back arches with pleasure, but you grab me tightly pressing my mouth against yours. As I move my head I begin to softly moan in your ear. My voice begs for more as I moan out your name. With one hand you grab my wet hair as with the other you put another finger inside me beginning to fuck me, slowly, then quickly as my moans grow load against your ear and I begin to bite your shoulders and your neck.  My body quivers as I fully give in to your teasing rhythm and the waves of pleasure that course through my body. I grind against your body as I near orgasm. I scream out your name as I feel I’m almost there but you stop, letting go of your grip as you pull your hand away from my clit.
As you liberate me with a cheeky smile, my hands clench into fists and I  playfully hit your letting out a revolted ‘Bastard!’.  You grin holding back your laughter as you love teasing me like that and you know exactly what’s about to come. I stand up quickly pushing myself against you as I straddle, changing  my balance and moving down as my hand  tightly grabs your fully erect dick rubbing it against my still wet and hot pussy . Your hands reach for me as I slide your dick inside me. A moan escapes from my throat and I just stand still for a bit enjoying the feeling of your length. 
Your hands grab my waist as I lean forward slowly rocking my hips. I press against you as I want you stay there, laying on your back. I start to move faster rolling my hips up and down as my breasts begin to bounce. Your hands wonder all over my body, sometimes gently grazing my skin, sometimes grabbing me with a firm grip. As you lay your hands on my breast I give in to the wild pleasure that crushes our bodies and I feel that we’re both close to cumming. Your grunts grow louder and you close your eyes as your hands grab my breasts. My moans turn to screams as I press against you more and more, grinding my clit against your skin. I feel my pussy clenching tight against your pulsating dick . I tilt my head back bending my back as my hips swirl faster against yours. The heat of our bodies, the sweat on out flesh the cursed sounds of the pleasure flowing through us. We both give in and as I let out a long moan.  Out of breath, I straighten my back, pull back my head as I feel your hot cum inside me . I lay my body on yours as your hands wrap around me and hold me tight and as we lay there in ecstasy I look into your eyes and put on a cheeky smile while I say ‘ How about a shower?’.


Tuesday, 12 June 2012

“Emotions can override…the more powerful fundamental motives that drive our lives: hunger, sex, and the will to survive. People will not eat if they think the only food available is disgusting. They may even die, although other people might consider that same food palatable. Emotion triumphs over the hunger drive! A person may never attempt sexual contact because of the interference of fear or disgust, or may never be able to complete a sexual act. Emotion triumphs over the sex drive! And despair can overwhelm even the will to live, motivating a suicide. Emotions triumph over the will to live!”

Friday, 8 June 2012

true story

We went out to explore the wilderness. Ben and I decided to have a break under a nice willow tree by a stream while we left Luke to his ways roaming the undergrowth. A few minutes went by and then a lot of branches cracking and nettles being trampled happened. We looked to our right to see Luke wandering back making his path of destruction behind him. In his hand he had an egg. He had found a pigeons nest.
As he's fidgety in nature, as we talked he kept rolling it around in his hands, shaking it and tossing it about. Eventually the inevitable happened and he cracked it a little. We both went "oh Luke"
After making him feel bad about what he had done he retaliated in anger by whipping out his pen knife and cutting it in half. Lots of yolk came out and a tiny tiny foetus. Eventually we shrugged it off.
A week or so went by and we met up at mine again. We decided for a smoke so we went out into the gale force winds and found a place to smoke... The same stream with the willow tree. Immidiatly Luke crashes forward into the undergrowth, realises where he was, to look for the nest.
He arrives back 5 minutes later triumphantly holding in his hand, a second egg.
We knew we couldn't do anything to stop him, we were already blazed too, so we just stood back, and watched the demon do his work. He shakes it too his ear "it doesn't have much yolk in, I wonder if the foetus has developed"
We knew what was coming. The knife again. "IN THE NAME OF ECOLOGY" proclaims Luke
Before we could protest, the egg is in halves and a horrible disgusting, fully developed foetus, beak and all slithers out.
I feel so guilty

Monday, 4 June 2012

Some people should lose their right to quote.

Fenimore Cooper's literary offenses

There are nineteen rules governing literary art in domain of romantic fiction -- some say twenty-two. In "Deerslayer," Cooper violated eighteen of them. These eighteen require:

1. That a tale shall accomplish something and arrive somewhere. But the "Deerslayer" tale accomplishes nothing and arrives in air. 2. They require that the episodes in a tale shall be necessary parts of the tale, and shall help to develop it. But as the "Deerslayer" tale is not a tale, and accomplishes nothing and arrives nowhere, the episodes have no rightful place in the work, since there was nothing for them to develop.
3. They require that the personages in a tale shall be alive, except in the case of corpses, and that always the reader shall be able to tell the corpses from the others. But this detail has often been overlooked in the "Deerslayer" tale.
4. They require that the personages in a tale, both dead and alive, shall exhibit a sufficient excuse for being there. But this detail also has been overlooked in the "Deerslayer" tale.
5. The require that when the personages of a tale deal in conversation, the talk shall sound like human talk, and be talk such as human beings would be likely to talk in the given circumstances, and have a discoverable meaning, also a discoverable purpose, and a show of relevancy, and remain in the neighborhood of the subject at hand, and be interesting to the reader, and help out the tale, and stop when the people cannot think of anything more to say. But this requirement has been ignored from the beginning of the "Deerslayer" tale to the end of it.
6. They require that when the author describes the character of a personage in the tale, the conduct and conversation of that personage shall justify said description. But this law gets little or no attention in the "Deerslayer" tale, as Natty Bumppo's case will amply prove.
7. They require that when a personage talks like an illustrated, gilt-edged, tree-calf, hand-tooled, seven- dollar Friendship's Offering in the beginning of a paragraph, he shall not talk like a negro minstrel in the end of it. But this rule is flung down and danced upon in the "Deerslayer" tale.
8. They require that crass stupidities shall not be played upon the reader as "the craft of the woodsman, the delicate art of the forest," by either the author or the people in the tale. But this rule is persistently violated in the "Deerslayer" tale.
9. They require that the personages of a tale shall confine themselves to possibilities and let miracles alone; or, if they venture a miracle, the author must so plausibly set it forth as to make it look possible and reasonable. But these rules are not respected in the "Deerslayer" tale.
10. They require that the author shall make the reader feel a deep interest in the personages of his tale and in their fate; and that he shall make the reader love the good people in the tale and hate the bad ones. But the reader of the "Deerslayer" tale dislikes the good people in it, is indifferent to the others, and wishes they would all get drowned together.
11. They require that the characters in a tale shall be so clearly defined that the reader can tell beforehand what each will do in a given emergency. But in the "Deerslayer" tale, this rule is vacated.
In addition to these large rules, there are some little ones. These require that the author shall:
12. Say what he is proposing to say, not merely come near it. 13. Use the right word, not its second cousin.
14. Eschew surplusage.
15. Not omit necessary details.
16. Avoid slovenliness of form.
17. Use good grammar.
18. Employ a simple and straightforward style.
Even these seven are coldly and persistently violated in the "Deerslayer" tale.

Someone told me a story!

So, this is my story of visiting Sandhill. It's an old abandoned village on the outskirts of Taunton. It's supposedly haunted but no one really knows.
A few of my friends and I decided to visit it one Friday night mainly because we were bored. We went by car with 5 of us crammed in. There's a turning off the main road to get to the village, it's pretty decrepit and overgrown by thistles, nettles, and brambles but our car just pushed on through the pathway riddled with potholes. 10 minutes went by and we still hadn't arrived. An opening in the path revealed a small area big enough to park, but there was already a car there, quite old, but it looked like it was still in use. A rusted red, Nissan Micra. We decided not to park there and continue up the path. The air was hazed with mist, even on full beam we could only see a few metres in front of us. But with determination, we finally arrived. An even bigger opening revealed a large run down farmhouse. Windows shattered, cobblestone crumbled in piles on the floor, wooden framework rotted, bent.
We decided to explore this house first. It was large, two stories high and surrounded by barbed wire. A complex method had to be done to cross the wire without cutting ourselves. So one of my friends held it down while the rest of us eased over it precariously. When we were all over, we looked around in the fog to discover the back garden of the house. It was divided by a small weathered wall. There was an overgrown garden teaming with bracken, a collapsed chicken pen reduced to wooden planks, and in the corner was a shed, a large open top one. The door opened with a loud creek but what was behind it was worth it. An old 1967 mustang, obviously beyond repair with rust as it's ill doer, but still pretty cool.
Anyhow, we went back and found the back door entrance of the house. There were large boulders piled up to block off the way in, but there was a small gap you could clamber through at the top.
I was about halfway up when my friend whispered "guys, I think there's someone in that field opposite us"
I had a good vantage point. The fog had cleared and sure enough I could see what I thought to be two silhouettes standing far away watching us, by the hedge.
We continued to stare. More scared by the idea of our assumption coming true and the figures moving. But after about 5 minutes of an intense staring competition, we dismissed them as trees.
But it was moments later that panic was reimbursed into the group. A child's laugh, and the sound of footsteps from around the other side of the house.
One of my boldest friends quickly darted round the corner, only to come back wide eyed saying "there was nothing there"
We all agreed this was making us feel too uneasy and we decided to head back.
Out of nowhere, screaming and heavy footsteps appeared. I turned around to see that those two figures weren't trees. Two fully grown me , blackened by the dark, giving out blood curdling screams and darting towards us.
Panic struck the group. Every man for himself. The barbed wire now seemed like no obsticle. I hurdled over it with menacing speed. Not high enough. My ankle caught a barb and I sprawled across the fence. No time to check the damage. I stood up, but applying pressure made me limp. It was only a short distance to the car. Everyone had made it but me. I dared not look around for fear there were close. Anticlimatically, I made it back to the car and we all caught our breath. Looking back across the field onto the house, the people, and screaming had disappeared.
On a unanimous decision we got the fuck out of there. Passing the potholes, the brambles, the nettles, the car park, but not the car....
However, this the least of our worries. We just wanted to get the fuck out.
Catching our breath we turned onto the main road. Each of us joking about how scared the others were. We were settled again, but not for long. Appearing out of the black behind us, a rusted red, Nissan Micra.
"Shitt, is t that the car that was parked up earlier?"
10 minutes of us taking unusual turning, it was still following us. The driver decided to risk it and pull over in a lay by. It pulled over too.
Before we knew it, three men sprung out of the car and lept upon us, banging the windows and bonnet of our car. Needless to say we locked the doors and wound up our windows.
They finally stopped and looked at us. We still couldn't get a clear view of there faces, it was misty again. And their efforts of clothing made it obvious they didn't want to be reckonised.
In a gruff voice one suddenly spoke "Ahh, we're just kidding lads. We like to scare people who come wandering up Sandhill. We're paid by the government to keep people away. As a sorry why don't you lads join us for a smoke?"
Taking this opportunity we slammed the accelerater and sped off. There was no way we were believing that bullshit. We looked back, they weren't following us. Big relieves and sighs, it was over.

Thursday, 31 May 2012

Whenever I flirt with a fresher I feel like a cougar.

Monday, 21 May 2012

....you know some people think there are an infinite number or parallel universes in which you made the' other choice'?!
Ana! please don't get all omnipotent and shit on my ass now...
you mean omniscient babe?!
yeah I always confuse those two
 babe, I thought you were up for a bit of 'intellectual conversation', that you liked that in a girl.
yeah but after talking to you I realised that my football knowledge is greater than my intellectual knowledge so I decided - I want a girl that likes football.

@bg

Thursday, 17 May 2012

    • Do you know what I do for a living?!Sorry you don't. Somehow in my head everyone knows what I do and how much I hate it so,the way I see it, "have fun at work" is always an ironic statement.I tend to naturally respond with _!_ and then I somewhat smile 'cause I don't mean it I'm "an immigrant" like that! And my weirdness comes from the fact that most of thins I do and say have a double meaning : what I think they mean and what the world thinks they mean.
    • I think that's just being a woman

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

-It suddenly hit me! That glorious moment! I've been talking about it all my life, but it was never really clear until then that I can actually make a little human!
-It takes two to tango, hun.


@fd

while rolling...

-Babe, there's no such thing as stupid questions...just stupid people.
-Well I'll have you know...
-Babe, good quality rizlaz over there!
-Oh..Yeah.....
-You were saying...
-Yeah...wait what were talking about?!

@bg

nuff' said

-Why do I like this boy so much?
-Because he's a guy and he's talking to you.


@Th

Thursday, 10 May 2012

Eminescu?!



Once on a time, as poets sing
High tales with fancy laden,
Born of a very noble king
There lived a wondrous maiden.

An only child, her kinsfolk boon,
So fair, imagination faints;
As though amidst the stars the moon,
Or Mary amidst the saints

From 'neath the castle's dark retreat,
Her silent way she wended
Each evening to the window-seat
Where Lucifer attended.

And secretly, with never fail,
She watched his double race,
Where vessels drew their pathless trail
Across the ocean's face.

And as intent she drank his light,
Desire was quickly there;
While he who saw her every night
Soon fell in love with her.

And sitting thus with rested head,
Her elbows on the sill,
Her heart by youthful fancy led
Did with deep longing fill.

While he, a brilliant shining spark,
Glowed always yet more clear
Towards the castle tall and dark
Where she would soon appear

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*

Until one night with shower of rays
He slips into her room,
As though a strange and silver haze
Did round about her loom.

And when at last the child to rest
Upon her sofa lies,
He lays her arms across her breast
And closes her soft eyes.

While where his ray on mirror lands
And is upon her couch red rifted,
It falls upon her throat and hands
And on her face uplifted.

A smile is on her lips it seems;
He in the mirror trembles,
For smooth his ray glides midst her dreams
And round her soul assembles.

And while she is in slumber gone
She murmurs through her sighs:
"Come down to me beloved one,
Fair prince of the clear skies.

Come down, good Lucifer and kind,
O lord of my aspire,
And flood my chamber and my mind
With your sweetest fire !"

And Lucifer beams still more bright
To hear her word's emotion;
Then like a comet in its flight
Dives down into the ocean.

And where his bolt is lost to view
The sea in whirlpool surges,
Till out of the unfathomed blue
A handsome youth emerges,

Who, leaping off the fretful wave,
Lightly through her casement passes;
And in his hand he holds a stave
Crowned with a wreath of grasses.

A prince indeed of royal stock,
With heavy hanging golden hair;
A purple winding-sheet his smock,
Hung round his shoulders bare.

A starry glow shines from his eyes,
His cheeks are deathly white;
A lifeless thing in living guise,
A youth born of the night.

"Down from the spheres do I come
Though dreadful the commotion,
My father is the vaulted dome,
My mother is the ocean.

For I have left my realm to keep
Obedience to your command;
Born of the zenith and the deep
Here I before you stand.

O come, fair child of royal birth,
Cast this your world aside,
For Lucifer has flown to earth
To claim you as his bride.

And you will live till time is done
In castles built of sky,
And all the fish will be your own,
And all the birds that fly".

"O, beautiful you are, good Sire,
As but an angel prince could be,
But to the course that you desire
I never shall agree

Strange, as your voice and vesture show,
I live while you are dead;
Your eyes gleam with an icy glow
Which fills my soul with dread."

One day went past, and went past-two,
Then o'er the castle dark,
Fair Lucifer again to view
Shone forth his lustrous spark.

And scarce his beam waved bright above,
Her dreams to him were borne,
Her heart again by aching love
And cruel longing torn.

"Come down, good Lucifer and kind,
O lord of my aspire,
And flood my chamber and my mind
With your sweetest fire !"

Now, as he heard her tender cry
With pain he faded out,
And lightning flew about the sky,
Which wheeled and rocked about;

Around the earth a lurid glow
Poured like a torrent race,
Till out of its chaotic flow
There grew a human face;

About the head dark wisps of hair
Girt with a crown of flame,
And through the sun-illumined air
Borne up by truth he came.

His arms of rounded marble sheen
Did 'neath a cloak of raven show,
And sad and thoughtful was his mien
And pallid was his brow.

Bright eyes he had that seemed to tell
Of strange chimerical bonds;
And deep they were as passion's spell,
And dark as moonlit ponds.

"Down from the spheres have I flown,
Though terrible my flight;
My father wears Apollo's crown,
My mother is the night.

O come, fair child of royal birth,
Cast this your world aside,
For Lucifer has flown to earth
To claim you as his bride.

A starry halo from the skies
About your hair will fall,
And you among the spheres will rise
The proudest of them all."

"O, beautiful you are, good Sire,
As but a demon prince could be,
But to the course of your desire
I never shall agree.

You wound me with your crude behest;
I dread what you extol;
Your heavy eyes, as though possessed,
Gleam down into my soul."

"But why should I descend to thee?
Far better what I give;
My days are all eternity,
While you but one hour live."

"I would not chosen phrases seek,
Nor carefully my words arrange,
But though with human mouth you speak,
Your speech to me is strange.

Yet if you wish to prove your worth,
That I betroth myself to you,
Well, then come down to me on earth
And be a mortal too."

You ask my endless, life above
To barter for a kiss.
Aye, I will show how my love,
How deep my longing is.

My birthright I will fling aside
To be reborn of sin, and I
Who to all rolling time am tied,
Will that great knot untie."

At which he turned and went away
Midst a cloud of sombre pearl,
To renounce his birthright from that day
For the love of a mortal girl.

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About this time young Catalin
Was a page boy of that house,
Who filled the festive cups with wine
At feast and royal carouse.

And carried high the regal train;
A foundling, brought by chance,
Born of a humble unknown strain,
Though roguish in his glance,

Round-cheeked, like rose-apples red,
Mischievous, bright-eyed,
A slipped with quick yet stealthy tread
To Catalina's side.

Upon my soul, Queen of romance !
Was such a darling ever?
Come Catalin, quick try your chance,
For now's your time or never.

At which he round her waist did twine
His arm in sudden wooing.
"Behave, you rascal Catalin,
Whatever are you doing?"

"By sorrow brooding all the while
You would your heart assuage,
But better you would turn and smile
And kiss just once your page."

"I know not what your wishes are,
Leave me alone, you knave.
Ah me ! The longing for that star
Will drive me to the grave."

"If you don't know, and you would learn
How love is set about,
Don't recklessly my teaching spurn,
First fairly hear me out.

As trappers deftly birds pursue
With nets among the tree,
When I stretch out my arm to you,
Slip your arm thus round me.

Your eyes into my eyes must glow,
Nor turn away, nor close
And when I lift you softly, so,
Rise gently on your toes.

And when my face is downwards bent
Your face turned up will stay,
That we may gaze with sweet intent
For ever and a day.

While should you wish at last to learn
The measure of love's bliss,
When hot my lips on yours do burn
Give back again my kiss."

Amused, yet with a girl's surprise
At what the youth acclaimed,
She blushed and turned away her eyes,
Half willing, half ashamed.

"A chatterbox you were since small
With overmuch to tell,
Yet I had felt, in spite of all,
We'd suit each other well".

But Lucifer's slow sailing spark
Crept up out of the sea
Over the horizon's arc,
Prince of eternity.

And now my wretched heart does bleed,
With tears my eyes grow dim,
When e'er I watch the waves that speed
Across the sea to him.

While he looms with adoring ray
My grief to overthrow,
Yet ever climbs to heights away
Where mortals cannot go.

His silver beams that space defy
Sadly my watchers are
And I shall love him till I die,
Yet he be ever far.

And thus it is the days to me
Are drear as desert sand,
The nights filled with a mystery
I dare not understand..."

"How childish is the way you speak.
Come on ! Come, lets run away,
That all the world for us shall seek
Though no one finds the way.

And we shall nothing of this life regret
But joyous live and sprightly,
Till soon your parents you'll forget,
Nor dream your longings nightly."

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Lucifer set out and o'er
The sky his wings extended,
And million years flew past before
As many moments ended.

A sky of stars above his way,
A sky of stars below;
As lightning flash midst them astray
In one continuous flow.

Till round his primal chaos hurled
When out of causeless night
The first, up flaming dawn unfurled
Its miracle of light.

Still further flew he ere the start
Of things of form devoid,
Spurred by the yearning of his heart,
Far back into the void.

Yet where he reach's is not the bourn
Nor yet where eye can see;
Beyond where struggling time was torn
Out of eternity.

Around him there was naught. And still,
Strange yearning there was yet,
A yearning that all space did fill,
As when the blind forget.

"O, Father God, this knot untie
Of my celestial birth,
And praised you will be on high
And on the rolling earth.

The price you ask is little count,
Give fate another course,
For you are of fair life the fount
And of calm death the source.

Take back this halo from my head,
Take back my starry lower,
And give to me, o God, instead
Of human love one hour.

Out of the chaos was I wrought,
In chaos would I be dispersed,
Out of the empty darkness brought,
For darkness do I thirst..."

"Hyperion, o child divine,
Don't thus your state disclaim,
Nor ask for miracle, nor sign
That has nor sense nor name.

You wish to be a man of son,
To be a star you scorn;
But men quick perish every one,
And men each day are born.

Yet stars burn on with even glow,
And it is fate's intending
That they nor time, nor place shall know,
Unfettered and unending.

Out of eternal yesterday
Into tomorrow's grave,
Even the sun will pass way
That other sun's shall lave;

The sun that every morn does rise
At last it's spirit gives,
For each thing lives because it dies,
And dies because it lives.

But you, Hyperion, never wane,
Night's miracle sublime,
But in the sky your place retain,
The wonder of all time.

So what strange fancy holds your mind
What dreaming thus berates you?
Return to earth and there you'll find
The awakening that awaits you."

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Hyperion did straightway go
To where through ages gone
His gleam upon the earth below
Nightly he had shone.

And it was evening when he came,
Night's darkness slow assembled,
And rose the moon a frozen flame
That in the water trembled,

And filled the forest's twilight clime
With a silver starry mist,
Where 'neath a tall and spreading lime
Two fair-haired children kissed.

"O, let me lay in lover's wise
My head upon your breast,
Beneath the wonder of your eyes,
In soft and fragrant rest.

In mystery's enchanted light
Pervade me with your charm,
And flood my soul through passion's night
With time's eternal calm.

O, quench my longing's eager thirst,
My aching doubts overcast,
For you to me are love the first,
And of my dreams the last."

Hyperion gazed down and knew
The fire their souls possessed;
For scarce the boy her nearer drew,
She clasped him to her breast.

A rain of petals in the air
That softly did enfold
Two fervent children strangely fair,
With locks of plated gold.

She, lost in love's enraptured flight,
To heaven turned her eyes,
Saw Lucifer's down shining light
And whispered through her sighs:

"Come down, good Lucifer and kind,
O lord of my aspire.
And fill the forest and my mind
With your sweetest fire !"

And Lucifer, alone in space,
Her tender summons heard,
A planet o'er the ocean's face
That trembled at her word,

But did not plunge as in former day,
And in his heart did cry:
"O, what care you, fair face of clay,
If it be he or I?

Still earth shall only earth remain,
Let luck its course unfold,
And I in my own kingdom reign
Immutable and cold."

Translated by

Corneliu M. Popescu

Tuesday, 8 May 2012

never thought was gonna happen....

FD: What has this conversation become?!
LE: It's a masterpiece!
FD: I think it's a bunch of idiots stretching their freedom of speech.
LE: Isn't every masterpiece?!
When asked why I was late I reply: I was too fucking busy and vice-versa.

Monday, 30 April 2012

 I leave Sisyphus at the foot of the mountain! One always finds one's burden again. But Sisyphus teaches the higher fidelity that negates the gods and raises rocks. He too concludes that all is well. This universe henceforth without a master seems to him neither sterile nor futile. Each atom of that stone, each mineral flake of that night filled mountain, in itself forms a world. The strugg le itself toward the heights is enough to fill a man's heart. One must imagine Sisyphus happy.